I Miss You.

I do. It’s true.

(See how I rhyme? Clearly my writing has suffered this summer.)

I’ve been thinking about how to start writing again, and how to put to paper everything that’s in my head, and I still don’t think I have the answers. But here I am. Cause I miss you. And because I think that despite all the things I don’t know, there are a few things I’ve learned to be absolutely true. And one of those things is that writing is a part of me. The other things… well, I’ll write about those another time.

For now, here’s what this summer has looked like for us…

1. Jon’s been off work. And he’s been done with grad school. Which means HE IS HOME. And life is wonderful. So much family time! He goes back to work in two weeks, but let’s not talk about that just yet.

2. We traveled back to Southern California for two entire weeks. If you’re familiar with my introverted tendencies, you’ll know that two weeks away from home was pretty much all I could handle. But we were able to see friends, spend time with family, and feel like we were surrounded by home. It was wonderful and exhausting, all at the same time. (Note to self :: Next time, don’t plan an activity for every day of the trip. You will end up needing a vacation from your vacation.)

3. All of this family time has led us to decide that homeschooling is the right choice for our family. I don’t know if I told you, but I had enrolled Emily in our local preschool for the fall. I never felt totally at peace about it, but I felt like she would like it, and I needed the break, honestly. But over the last few months, I’ve learned that what Emily and I really need is time together. Focusing my attention on her instead of the computer makes a huge difference in her behavior, respect, and demeanor. I’m falling in love with my little girl again. Threenager or not, she’s so very special. So, we’ve changed our plans, and I just finalized our curriculum and supplies yesterday! I can’t wait to spend our mornings preschooling together! More on that (curriculum choices, our homeschool room, etc.) to come.

4. Speaking of teaching, we’ve been teaching classes like crazy! It’s super fun to “work” with your hubby. We have loved teaching classes on essential oils, natural solutions, and family wellness. I’m learning a whole lot myself, and making some big changes in my life. (Like, we joined a gym and I got a TRAINER. I’m working out 5 times a week. Yes, me. I don’t believe it either. And don’t get me started on my diet… because I still really love frozen yogurt. But I’m getting ready to make some big changes there too. It’s bittersweet. Mostly bitter…)

natural solutions fbWe actually are teaching a class via webinar this Wednesday. If you’ve ever wondered what essential oils are, or if they might be the right choice for your family, this class is for you. Come, invite your friends, and let’s learn together. I’ve even got a few free printables for you. :) (Would you expect anything less?!) If you’d like to join us, you can RSVP here! Everyone is welcome!

That about covers it for me. What about you? I’d love to hear how your summer has been going! Share in the comments, what’s the best thing you’ve done this summer?

Upside Down

I’ve got a few things to say, and they might not be pretty. But they will be honest, because this place is nothing if not honest.

I’ve been writing this post for two weeks. It’s been really long, and then edited down to be really short. And then scrapped completely and started over again.

This time, I’ll try to make the story short, and get right to the point.

Over the last month or so, I’ve been meeting with a Life Coach. Carey Bailey, to be exact. We talk on the phone once a week and she asks me questions I thought I knew the answer to, but realize I didn’t. Initially, the plan was to focus on getting healthy – eating well and exercising. I need a lot of help and accountability in this area. But Carey is helping me see how my struggles are deeper than food, and there are some areas where I need to dig in and just look at them for a while.

On our call this week, these words tumbled out of my mouth, “I just feel like my life is upside down. Like it started right-side up and then somewhere down the road, it flipped.”

For the last few months, at the end of each day, I am exhausted, and irritable, and so divided that I can’t even keep my thoughts straight. I’m an impatient mom, a demanding wife, and feel hopelessly stuck.

A lot of this has nothing to do with blogging, but some of it does. I’m writing about things that I know are important, but I’m not doing well myself. I am passionate about encouraging moms to be present and enjoy their kids and yet I don’t feel the freedom to do that in my own life. I share the hope of Christ, but if I’m honest, many days I feel like it applies to you, but not to me.

It’s upside down. It’s supposed to be the other way, writing out of the overflow instead of writing in hopes that enough “likes” and “shares” might fill me.

To be honest, I kind of feel like I’m having a mid-life crisis at the ripe old age of 30. Which either means that my lifespan is shorter than anticipated, or I’m just an overachiever.

I’m wrestling with what “calling” really means. I’m feeling like a failure in a lot of areas, and wondering if I’ve been going down a road that wasn’t intended for me. I’m sorting out my desire to be a Writer (yes, with a capital W) with the giant job of motherhood that is already in front of me. I’m trying to figure out what God wants from me, what I’m supposed to be doing with my life. I’m in a season where I feel confused and defeated a lot of the time, and I just need some space to sort out life.

I need to heal. Physically, my body has been through the wringer in the last 6 months. Emotionally, it’s not too different. I need to rest. I need to refill. I desperately need Jesus to show up in a big way. Or in a little way that’s clear to me.

I know that the sun doesn’t rise or set here on this blog, but I wanted to be honest with you and tell you what’s going on with me before I unplug for a while. I don’t know if that’s going to look like complete silence, or if it’s going to come out in me writing through this journey. I do know it’s not going to look like me keeping up with social media, or creating pinnable images for each post.

That’s what I mean about the mid-life crisis thing. I don’t know a whole lot. I don’t know what God has for me. I feel fairly lost at the moment. All I know is that I need to be quiet and lean into Him. Practice that whole dependence thing that my year was supposed to be about.

I need to flip my life back over. Make it right-side-up again, with my feet firmly planted in the Word and my heart more still than frantic.

I hope you understand. I’m guessing maybe a few of you are even in the same boat – needing quiet to sort out the chaos that is your life right now. As I pray over the messes in my own life, I’ll be praying for you too.

Blessings to you, friends. I appreciate each of you. See you in a while.

 

If you’re feeling stuck, or lost, or confused about God’s direction for your life, I really do highly recommend life coaching with Carey Bailey. Carey partners with you to evaluate where you currently are in your day to day life and where you desire to be when it comes to any area of your life. Together, she helps you to identify your core values, name the obstacles getting in your way, and recognize that only truth will begin to satisfy the cravings you have to live an abundant life. She is Christ-centered, incredibly encouraging, but honest enough to call you on the things you need to be called on. I appreciate her SO VERY MUCH. I know you will too.

Today through June 1st, she’s offering all of my readers 20% off of any life coaching package with the code KAYSE. Take advantage of that! Her mission as a life coach is to help you satisfy your craving for an abundant life. Who doesn’t want that? You’ll love her, I promise. :)

The Honest Truth

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My plan for today was to remind you all about why The Ultimate Homemaking Bundle is the best deal you’ll find all year, and to let you know that today is the last day to buy it. But… The honest truth is that I’m a little tired of talking about the bundle. I’m not a salesperson, by any means, and I try not to bombard you with stuff to buy. So while I truly think this bundle sale is a {Read More}

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Hope for Your Work

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I thought I’d throw in one more day here for those of you who balance motherhood and a job. Or three. It’s no easy task. I’ve got two passions going right now. First, I’m a writer. I write here, at the Allume blog, and I just finished my first book for Discovery House (releasing in November!). I love to write – it’s the way God’s made me. I process life through words – the writing is learning for me. Second, {Read More}

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Hope for Your Family

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We’re in a bit of a rough season here in the Pratt house. Jon’s working full time and also in school full time. I’m a blogger who is also writing a book. We’re both running an Essential Oils business, which is doing really well but needs our full attention as it grows. We’ve got two kids, one of whom is still (obviously) incredibly dependent, and one of whom insists on her independence. We’ve got time management problems and discipline issues {Read More}

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Hope for Your Kitchen

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Mmmm. Food. I really love to cook. I feel so creative and accomplished when I make dinner for my family. It doesn’t have to be gourmet to be great, you know? Healthy, filling, and tasty – that’s enough for us. But I’ll be honest. Over the last few months, we’ve gotten in the habit of getting take-out for dinner multiple times a week. While my taste buds and carb cravings often love this, my heart and my wallet do not. {Read More}

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The Ultimate Homemaking Bundle – Only Available for 6 Days!!

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UPDATE: For the last 5 hours only, get EVERYTHING in my store for FREE! If you buy the Ultimate Homemaking Bundle through KaysePratt.com, just send me your receipt and I’ll send you EVERYTHING IN MY STORE, for free. That’s all 3 of my eBooks, every single home management printable, and every single scripture printable. All for free. That’s a value of over $70! If you buy one thing for yourself this year, make THIS your one thing. (It’s like giving {Read More}

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Hope for Your Soul

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I try to get up early and do my Bible reading each morning. Please note the key word there – “try”. Lots of days, it just doesn’t happen. I’ve got two kids – one who stays up late and one who gets up early. It’s like the perfect storm for ending up with no time in the Word.  The problem is, I go for a few days in a row with late nights, early mornings, and zero Bible reading, and {Read More}

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Hope for the Daily Grind

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I often get the comment “You’re so organized!”. I think maybe it’s because I wrote an eBook on setting up a home management system. Or because I make printables to help organize life. I like to come up with structures and systems that work. Can I tell you a secret though? I have yet to come up with a system that I can totally stick with. Call it the changing seasons of life, or call it an utter lack of {Read More}

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Hope Restored

Every day, I do the same basic things. From the moment I wake up, my mind is going a hundred miles an hour, consumed by everything I need to get done that day. Despite the fact that I essentially do the same things today that I did yesterday, and tomorrow I’ll do them again, it all still weighs heavily on my mind. I wake up and make breakfast and lunch for my husband. At some point in the day, I {Read More}

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